12/19/05 it's 2 am
wtf, was watching a movie with Sammy D and didn't realize how late it got. It's weird. Being around someone 5 years younger than I, you realize your age.
I played pool with the missionaries all day yesterday and got to hang out with Rolaids a little bit. Today was surreal. I was planning on going to the lds institute this morning when Crook called and invited me to her church that was having a big sunday feast. Since food is my weakness I had to go with her even though I promised the missionaries I'd go with them. We get to her church and what do you know, I meet Patrice's mom. very fucking wierd. not her. me. me meeting her. My short lived friendship with Patrice was bitter-sweet. I just wanted to be friends with her and maybe she thought I had different intentions and then when she met her future husband she felt like she couldn't hang out with me anymore. I dunno. What I just wrote is maybe too Jimmy-centered and not even close to reality. I also met Gerry, he used to work and Engineering Network Services, way back in the day. This guy is not much older than I am and has worked for HP r&d and leads the freakin Samba development team. Over achiever. Very cool guy nonetheless. So we all gorged ourselves and watched the entertainment which was long as hell but rather cool at the same time. The little kiddies all dressed up acting on stage, the adults, it was like one big family. I'll be back to that church for sure. Then Crook and I left to go pick her Granny up at another all black church, we walk in and I didn't feel the "oh my god, it's a honky" stigma at all. very nice people. Got to meet her kick ass granny and went back to her house, she wanted me to look at fixing her wheelchair ramp. I looked at it and it's a full days work, not to mention a few hundred quid in lumber, but as always I'll be more than happy to help Crook's granny out.
On the way back to my place Eddra and I got into a religious discussion, it started off with how you can view the different religions in terms of a shattered glass and each denomination has a piece. I brought up the analogy and was like, yes, and the mormons, they have a piece too, we all do. I said Mormons are VERY big on family and thats when the conversation turned south in my eyes. She has a major problem with the LDS church, mainly because they didn't allow blacks to hold leadership positions in the 60's. She dropped the bomb on a lot of stuff she learned in bible school over in London. Something about a video tape the mormons put out in the 60's that said blacks were a sub par race and from a different planet...... what the fuck ?? Anyway, we talked for a good hour or so outside of my place in her car. I was tired so I politely retreated from the discussion and said my good-byes. As soon as I got through my door I called Elder Morris to see what he had to say about all of this.... Eddra had a big problem with "assurance" versus "Insurance" in terms of the gift of everlasting life. She asked a missionary one time that if he were to die today, would he goto heaven ? He replied, I sure hope so. You see, Eddra believes that everlasting life is a gift, and a gift is given to you with no strings attached. she used the analogy of me getting a gift from her and then having to work 10 hours of manual labor for it. thats not a gift and she's got a point. Anyway, she told me to ask the missionaries that very same question and sure enough Morris said the same thing. What does that mean ? Probably nothing. Anyway, she knocked my religion or at least what I claim..... and that kinda hurt. Shouldn't the judging be left upto God ? Eddra is a very learned person and I respect everything she has to say. But there was an almost hatred for the LDS church peiring out of her.
I heard what Eddra had to say, her take on things, I heard what Elder Morris had to say, his take on things, and fuck..... Now I'm just even more confused about what I need to believe in. It would be to fucking easy to be a piece of crap loser and steal, lie, and cheat. That stuff is too easy. Living righteous and doing the right thing is hard as hell... I've been touched by God in some way and I can't deny I yearn for him. To turn around and shrug off what I feel would be cutting my own throat. The first step to clear my confusion is to pray & read. Something I don't do.... and I wonder why I'm so confused all the time, I do it to myself.
Oh yeah, and to all of those companies that make money off of data mining the internet's bloggs, you can go fuck yourselves. I will never reveal my thoughts on a certan product just so you can make a buck off of my miserable existance. In fact, I should start a movement teaching people to post the exact opposite to how they really feel about a product or a company then your precious spiders will be compiling a bunch of crap, then you'll supply the crap to the people you have contracts with and they will gear thier market strategy around the "crap" and fail. How dare you use peoples thoughts and ideas and feelings to make a buck. Sure, your fucking arguement is the info is free and it's splattered all over the internet, but it comes down to respecting peoples privacy. you fuckers represent what is WRONG with America and why the rest of the world has an all out hatred for us..... thanks a bunch. Now when I go to backpack Europe I have to say I'm from Canada just so I don't get my ass kicked. thanks a lot fuck stick.
I played pool with the missionaries all day yesterday and got to hang out with Rolaids a little bit. Today was surreal. I was planning on going to the lds institute this morning when Crook called and invited me to her church that was having a big sunday feast. Since food is my weakness I had to go with her even though I promised the missionaries I'd go with them. We get to her church and what do you know, I meet Patrice's mom. very fucking wierd. not her. me. me meeting her. My short lived friendship with Patrice was bitter-sweet. I just wanted to be friends with her and maybe she thought I had different intentions and then when she met her future husband she felt like she couldn't hang out with me anymore. I dunno. What I just wrote is maybe too Jimmy-centered and not even close to reality. I also met Gerry, he used to work and Engineering Network Services, way back in the day. This guy is not much older than I am and has worked for HP r&d and leads the freakin Samba development team. Over achiever. Very cool guy nonetheless. So we all gorged ourselves and watched the entertainment which was long as hell but rather cool at the same time. The little kiddies all dressed up acting on stage, the adults, it was like one big family. I'll be back to that church for sure. Then Crook and I left to go pick her Granny up at another all black church, we walk in and I didn't feel the "oh my god, it's a honky" stigma at all. very nice people. Got to meet her kick ass granny and went back to her house, she wanted me to look at fixing her wheelchair ramp. I looked at it and it's a full days work, not to mention a few hundred quid in lumber, but as always I'll be more than happy to help Crook's granny out.
On the way back to my place Eddra and I got into a religious discussion, it started off with how you can view the different religions in terms of a shattered glass and each denomination has a piece. I brought up the analogy and was like, yes, and the mormons, they have a piece too, we all do. I said Mormons are VERY big on family and thats when the conversation turned south in my eyes. She has a major problem with the LDS church, mainly because they didn't allow blacks to hold leadership positions in the 60's. She dropped the bomb on a lot of stuff she learned in bible school over in London. Something about a video tape the mormons put out in the 60's that said blacks were a sub par race and from a different planet...... what the fuck ?? Anyway, we talked for a good hour or so outside of my place in her car. I was tired so I politely retreated from the discussion and said my good-byes. As soon as I got through my door I called Elder Morris to see what he had to say about all of this.... Eddra had a big problem with "assurance" versus "Insurance" in terms of the gift of everlasting life. She asked a missionary one time that if he were to die today, would he goto heaven ? He replied, I sure hope so. You see, Eddra believes that everlasting life is a gift, and a gift is given to you with no strings attached. she used the analogy of me getting a gift from her and then having to work 10 hours of manual labor for it. thats not a gift and she's got a point. Anyway, she told me to ask the missionaries that very same question and sure enough Morris said the same thing. What does that mean ? Probably nothing. Anyway, she knocked my religion or at least what I claim..... and that kinda hurt. Shouldn't the judging be left upto God ? Eddra is a very learned person and I respect everything she has to say. But there was an almost hatred for the LDS church peiring out of her.
I heard what Eddra had to say, her take on things, I heard what Elder Morris had to say, his take on things, and fuck..... Now I'm just even more confused about what I need to believe in. It would be to fucking easy to be a piece of crap loser and steal, lie, and cheat. That stuff is too easy. Living righteous and doing the right thing is hard as hell... I've been touched by God in some way and I can't deny I yearn for him. To turn around and shrug off what I feel would be cutting my own throat. The first step to clear my confusion is to pray & read. Something I don't do.... and I wonder why I'm so confused all the time, I do it to myself.
Oh yeah, and to all of those companies that make money off of data mining the internet's bloggs, you can go fuck yourselves. I will never reveal my thoughts on a certan product just so you can make a buck off of my miserable existance. In fact, I should start a movement teaching people to post the exact opposite to how they really feel about a product or a company then your precious spiders will be compiling a bunch of crap, then you'll supply the crap to the people you have contracts with and they will gear thier market strategy around the "crap" and fail. How dare you use peoples thoughts and ideas and feelings to make a buck. Sure, your fucking arguement is the info is free and it's splattered all over the internet, but it comes down to respecting peoples privacy. you fuckers represent what is WRONG with America and why the rest of the world has an all out hatred for us..... thanks a bunch. Now when I go to backpack Europe I have to say I'm from Canada just so I don't get my ass kicked. thanks a lot fuck stick.
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