01/27/07 The mormon faith

I had a meeting with my president the other day. He pointed out that he heard from an unknown source that Sammy was occasionally spending the night at my house. In so many words, he basically told me to knock it off, but I DO have my own free agency it's just that he doesn't condone that type of activity because it leads to other things. So if I know that I'm not having sex, and Sammy knows that she's not having sex and God knows that we aren't having sex, than what is the problem ? Image ? The fact that she spends the night at my house and someone sees that and knows that I'm Mormon, I'll make the church look bad or something.... I dunno.

That's very personal and downright offensive to tell someone to stop doing something, like some freakin dictatorship. I don't want anybody lingering over my head except for God. I understand that it's his job to "know thy own flock" and to correct things that need to be corrected, things that are going against the Word of Wisdom or other doctrines of the church. Sammy and I have an agreement not to have sex, not even play around because afterwards we both usually feel like shit, like hypocrites. Events & feelings that occur outside of our perceived notions of right & wrong are what cause mental pain and anguish..

01/27/07 Dugong

While in Mozambique I talked to this German fellow that had been living in Voloculus since 1968. We talked of religion, women, politics, disease, philosophy..... etc He told me his life story of how he got his girlfriend pregnant when he was still living in Stuttgart as a young German. Eventually grabbed a boat to South Africa and lived a lavish life up until his wife ran off with his best friend. His world was crushed. He explained to me the uselessness of marriage and that it only brings heartache. He found his peace with God and with life by becoming a fisherman and has been happy ever since. He said if he has a bad day, stress or whatever, he goes down to the beach puts his feet in the water and gazes at the horizon. An Australian women that joined our conversation agreed and said she does the same damn thing, I'll have to use my bathtub and pretend I'm in Africa. Anyway, I'm glad I met this man, I gained some valuable wisdom.

I had heard of this extremely rare and endangered fish in Mozambique called a "Dugong" It supposedly had mermaid-like qualities such as a chest that resembled a women's breasts. I asked if the German guy had ever seen one while he was out to sea and he said of all of his travels he'd only whitnessed the grace of one and it was beatiful. He said if you ever see one count your lucky stars because they're nearly extinct.

What really made my trip was randomly talking to anyone and everyone.

01/23/07 Sammy_D

She was baptised this past Saturday and confirmed a member of the church the next day. We are an item now... not just because we now share the same faith, our union or bond or whatever the hell you want to call it happened way before she got baptised, way before I left for Africa, last year some time. How we work I don't know, we just do. I can see myself spending the rest of my life with this women and being very happy. I've put her through SO much shit and she still hung in there.... waiting for me to come around..... waiting for me to realize that I was a moron for waiting a year and half for a women I barely knew.

I don't know what will happen between us, I'll just let it naturally evolve. If we work out and make each other happy then great !! if not, atleast we tried. I trust this women with my life and I'm sure she feels the same and that is a huge part of a relationship. Will we work out ? will there be little slovenian-english anglo saxon hybrid kids running around in a few years ? I don't know.

01/23/07 The stories of Africa

I've been back in the states now for a couple weeks. I'm going to start telling my stories of Mozambique before I forget, seems I have a tough of alzhiemers at the age of 25. I guess as things come to me I'll just post em'

Everyone in Africa holds hands and I probably find this remarkable because I'm an American and we like our space. Even the men hold hands !! I know it's crazy. I talked to some Norwegian girls on my trip that said they spent some time in west Africa (St. Thomas islands, the little one) before comming to Mozambique. Evidently in west Africa the men not only hold hands but also have purses..... This is all highly ironic because of the fact that most Africans are very homophobic. If they only knew that holding hands with another man & carrying a purse is the epitome of the gay culture here in America and in most places in Europe. When I say purse, I mean a satchel that looks very simaler to a purse in the western culture.